Me Socially/Dating

Its been quite a while since i last posted. I figured that since ive gone over my early life, and a brief overview on my beliefs, that i should venture into yet another aspect of my life, and one that ive been trying to learn about and grow in during the last 3 years of college while i was taking classes. That is to say, the social spectrum of things, and in particular, Girls/Woman.

Throughout my life, like i mentioned in an earlier post, i didnt really try to expand much

in my social life. I liked to watch people, and try to learn about it, but it wasn't in my list of goals, shall we say. When i entered college, i decided that i wanted to change that.

I had 3 main goals when i entered college.

1. To pursue a degree which i could use to mold a career path for myself

2. To learn about God. In particularly the christian faith.

3. To expand in my social life, in a healthy way (to make a distinction)

I hadn't had much luck in number 3 during high school or middle school. I had tried once to work on it, and that didn't turn out too well.

To be specific, i had a middle school crush. At one of the school dances, i decided to approach her and ask her to dance. It seemed like a good idea at the time, from my minimal knowledge of social how-to-do's. I waited for a slower song, and asked her. I got a very blank stare in return, and after waiting 5 or so seconds (it seemed like a whole day at the time), i turned and left, at a double timed pace. My heart was beating out of my chest, and i was really unsure of what to do, or what i had done wrong. Later that day i decided that i would avoid actively getting to know people of the opposite gender from now on. (probably the first time since then that i have told anyone about it)

During college, thanks to a few azalean friends, i got rather involved in ballroom dancing. At a dance I met someone by the name of Kirstin. It turns out that she had recognized me from a biology lab that i stood in for. She had been the TA. I rather stood out during that year. I was still very much a Butte Creek Wrangler through and through (well in clothing at least). We danced, and later she found me on Facebook. I started to get to know her as friends, with an interest in becoming more than that. She was a very unique and amazing human being. I don't think i have ever met someone so fascinated with bugs, in particular, cockroaches. She could list out all these different but cool facts about bugs. (not exactly my area of expertise)

However, in my rather un-knowledgable state, i acted in ways that i now regret. Like for instance, not showing interest in things that she loved to talk about, even though she would ask me questions about horses, for instance. (more my cup of tea)

Our friendship never grew into someone more, but i learned many valuable lessons about being around people. Many of them, i'm just now realizing.

After that i did a lot of soul searching, and over the next 2 years i tried to figure out just what dating meant to me, along with what i was looking for in possible girlfriends/wives. I friend of mine, Daniel Thornton, expressed his views earlier this year on the same subject, and i very much agree with what he says.

Im not up for short relationships and the like. When i date, i am trying to look for what i would want in a wife. Ive never had a girlfriend. I guess you could say i have just never found the right person. Or perhaps i have, and i haven't realized it yet.

Either way, i know that god will, at some point (maybe he already has and i haven't noticed it yet), bring the perfect girl my way for me. When this happens, i will devote all the love, honesty, and happyness that i can to her. I strive to do that to people around me, in the hopes of growing in it, so that i will be prepared when i find that person.

When i find her, i will be the luckiest person alive, and i will strive to show that she is the most beautiful person that i have ever met.

As for what im looking for, a friend of my explains it very well. "
I'm not trying to set a high standard. I'm looking for a girl who's single. I'm looking for a girl that shares my faith. I'm looking for a girl who gives me the impression that if I ask her on a date, I have chance. Just a chance. I'm looking for a girl that I can make laugh, and who can make me laugh. I love to laugh and I try to be funny. I'm looking for a girl I get along well with. If the laughing matter is there, this probably is too. Just saying. I meet girls like this all the time. Except one thing. Seriously. One thing is usually missing. Specifically they all seem to be either non-christian, or non-single."